Simple Mind
I have always had a simple side, which sometimes works against me: I am regularly taken for a blockhead or for someone insensitive, going on my own track and unable to change it (no point denying it, I can see you ;-)). In reality, I'm a simple person, I don't like to torture my mind and that's what helps me today to take all this as calmly as possible.
I'm not devastated, I'm not downhearted, I'm not overwhelmed: it's a new stage in my life that I have to go through like I've gone through many others. It doesn't scare me, it doesn't require more courage or determination, it's just there. I have to deal with it.
But don't get me wrong, I'm not in denial either, as some people can be: I fully understood that I had cancer, that if it hadn't been discovered and treated, I only had a few months left (yes, I asked), but it doesn't scare me. It would just have been a different life, a different path. I am well aware that it is easier to say when there is hope, but I know full well that if I had been diagnosed with a terminal illness, I would have taken things as they came and tried to make the most of the time I had left. Sometimes it's better to accept what you cannot control or avoid.
I also know that, unfortunately, cancer has become common these days, so I don't ask too many questions, I know what I have to do, it's right in front of me. I like it when it's simple and clear. Simple... and clear!
