That's settled
I put the turbo on during the weekend of August 15, not on the highway, but on the information superhighway, as they say. Revising texts, adding missing images and videos, importing everything from Notion to my local site, dating and categorizing all the posts, backup, purchasing a domain name, setting up hosting, transferring the blog, and adjusting the CSS so that everything looks good on different devices, opening a dedicated Gmail account—it all takes time.
The moment had arrived to make my announcement on Facebook, and I chose August 15 to ensure I would not be overwhelmed by responses, emails, comments, and private messages. I limited my activity to Facebook on the first day, adding Instagram at the end of the day on the 16th. That's also why I didn't really push the SEO, I'll take care of that when I'll have time. I'd like to mention the indecency of the Facebook algorithms that suggest I boost my post for a few euros. 😉 Yeah sure...
When I published it, I had the idea, the hope, that this blog could be useful to people like me, who aren't familiar with medical matters, but the feedback revealed much more to me: some people recognize themselves, having lived or experienced similar journeys, and share with me the similarities or differences between our experiences.
Caregivers talk to me or write to me. I am happy with their feedback so far, because it was essential for me to highlight their commitment and importance in a tangible way, not just by applauding at my window in the evening and forgetting about them as soon as the problem receded into the background (any resemblance to events dating from 2020 is purely coincidental, of course).
Long-time friends are getting back in touch, people who usually follow you without commenting are coming forward, former students with whom I never lost contact, and others whom I had lost sight of but who, I now realize, must regularly visit my pages. There are also many musicians, some of whom show a sensitivity I hadn't noticed before. Thank you to all of you for accepting this blog for what it is and for understanding it.
I was “afraid of scaring people,” of putting dark thoughts into everyone's heads. But I quickly realized that I had simply opened my door, and people were coming in or opening theirs in return, with the same simplicity.
FYC! STFU!
It also freed me from something that was weighing on my shoulders, a kind of Jiminy Cricket:
— That's all well and good: writing something and putting it online before September, but you're taking the risk of not being able to do it, and then what? Are you sure you've made the right technical choices? Are you sure you'll have enough energy to see it through to the end? I'm keeping an eye on you, so watch out!!
— Fuck you Cricket! Shut the fuck up! It's online now, see?
But Jiminy isn't fooled:
— Yeah, except you said it was a blog, so now people are waiting for the next chapter. What are you going to do? Just more blah blah blah? Self-parody?
— OK, it's not really a blog, but... I'll be back to talk about the important stuff!!
— Like?
— Well, I don't know, more exams... the concert on September 8, some... stuff... I don't know exactly. Maybe... until the end of the year. Anyway, it made me want to try writing about other things.
— Yeah, yeah, don't get too excited, Judge, you're not Victor Hugo...
— I know, don't worry...
